Sunday, July 29, 2012

sunday getaway || life



This past week was such an emotionally draining week, but it ended well. Today, with a few precious friends from church, we went to Elora Gorge to relax and have fun. This is one of my favorite spots to go to in my area. It's just unfortunate that it hasn't rained a lot this summer so the water isn't swimmable.

It felt like a getaway even though we were only there for a few hours. I love nature's ability to recharge you. It's like you're literally breathing LIFE when you're so close to rocks, trees, waters and wildlife (dragonflies count!).

Monday, July 23, 2012

greater things ahead || life


I looked out the window tonight and saw this. The clouds were unreal. So big, so captivating, so beautiful but so far away. Sometimes life doesn't make sense to me. More often than I like, I feel if I let go of something I'll get something worse in return. I don't know if I'm having some quarter-life crisis, but I've never been so introspective of my life until now. 

Thank you C.S Lewis for your words of wisdom and hope. The future has yet to be written so nothing is set in stone. The possibilities of where my life will go are endless. I'm mentally drained from fighting myself everyday. 

Surrender || I'll try
Trust || who?
Love || Impossible
Be free || how?

I can't be the author of my life anymore. 

God, knowing that you are Lord over my life should make this easier right? 
You're a better story-writer anyway. 

Saturday, July 21, 2012

voice of hope || faith



Did you know we're at war? No one told me this, but when I look around me it's pretty obvious. We're caught up in a war where darkness seems to be winning. We can't go a day without hearing about some  sort of injustice and brokenness. 

We're fighting for hope in a very broken world. 

hope: a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen

When we're faced with trials and tragic circumstances we have two options. We can either hope for the better or fall into the trap of hopelessness.

Hope perseveres. Hopelessness gives up.
Hope trusts. Hopelessness is skeptical. 
Hope leads to life. Hopelessness leads to death. 

I'm a pretty pessimistic person. I try to be very logical and realistic about the realities of life so it's pretty difficult for me to be positive when my seemingly unfair circumstances are constantly dancing in front of me. 


I have scoliosis and it looks like I'm not getting better. It's hard to hope when the realities of my x-rays tell me this is impossible to heal. 


I'm single and have been for my whole life. I feel like I'll never get married. It's better to sul about it than to hope I'll meet someone. 


I'm running in circles in regards to my career and I can't see anything practical in the near future. I'm at a tipping where maybe I should just settle for a safe job rather than go after my dreams. 


I like to protect myself from any disappointment. Isn't it better to prevent any further pain when you're already hurting? I like to think so. 

Yet, the message of hope seems to be telling me otherwise. I think of Jairus from the Bible. His daughter was dying and he comes to Jesus hoping that Jesus can do something. He was desperate. But while Jesus is on his way to see the girl, there's a roadblock. A woman, also desperate to be healed, touches Jesus and gets healed. Instead of continuing on with his journey, Jesus stops to communicate with this woman. If I were Jairus at this moment, I'd be so anxious and annoyed. I'd be so worried that with every passing minute my daughter would be closer to death. 


While this is all happening, someone from Jairus' house comes and says, "Your daughter is dead; do not trouble the Teacher any more." Voice of hopelessness. Voice of reality. What amazes me is how Jesus responds. On hearing this Jesus replies, "Don't be afraid; just believe and she will be healed." Voice of hope. 


What the? She's dead. She doesn't need healing! She's dead. That's it. It's game over. Jesus' words don't make sense. Jesus speaks hope against the voice of hopelessness. There's such a sharp contrast between these two voices. Jesus looks at the overwhelming odds and works against it. 


The enemy is constantly trying to overwhelm us with odds. What he's forgotten is that we are a people of living hope and truth. We don't live in reality and statistics, but we are fighting for hope. 


Listen and hear his gentle voice of hope. It's going to sound ridiculous. It won't make any sense. It might even make us angry. Hope wins against all odds. Always. Even when it seems like we're losing, his truth is always victorious. 


Who are you listening to? 


1 Peter 1:3  
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead


  



Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Seoul Time Lapse || video



I miss Seoul a lot. This video is amazing. A lot of people still don't know where Seoul is or what kind of city it is, but check it out. I still can't believe I lived here, with 10 million others, all on my own without any family. It still boggles my mind that I did this. This was my home. All the lights, cars, peoples, subways, food and history. It was mine. I've been to NYC, Chicago, LA, Mexico City and Toronto... but nothing is like Seoul. I love it and can't wait to go back.