see you soon thrice || music

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This is a bittersweet post for me to write. Today I leave for California, which I'm really excited about, but at the same time Thrice is on their farewell tour and coming to Toronto tonight so I'm sad since I'll be missing this show.

I've liked and been listening to Thrice since 2002 when I discovered The Illusion of Safety. I've been a fan of so many different bands, but Thrice is the one band that I've been consistently listening to. 
This past November I woke up at around 3am and saw the announcement on their website that they were taking a break as a band for a while. This was devastating news to me. I had such a funny and sad feeling in my stomach as I processed this bit of news. 


This past Friday I was driving home and blasted their old songs and I started to reminisce on their albums, the times that I saw them live and the different friends I made because of our mutual love for Thrice. I actually felt some kind of grieving in my heart and was overwhelmed with sadness. They've had an incredible impact on me and my life. With a lot of influence from the Bible and C.S Lewis there's so much life and wisdom in their music. 


Thrice has grown and progressed so much in the past 13 years. Since I can't see them tonight I'm hoping they'll do some kind of reunion show in few years even though they'll be going on a long hiatus. I envy all of you guys who are able to go. Have extra fun for me!


My favorite songs
See You in the Shallows (The Illusion of Safety 2002)
Deadbolt (The Illusion of Safety 2002)
To Awake and Avenge the Dead (The Illusion of Safety 2002)
The Artist in the Ambulance (The Artist in the Ambulance 2003)
Stare at the Sun (The Artist in the Ambulance 2003)
Open Water (The Alchemy Index Volumes 1 & 2 2007)
In Exile (Beggars 2009)


There's more. I can spend hours and hours listening to their songs. I'll leave you with some of my favorite lyrics from their songs. I know they're on their farewell tour, but I have hope that they'll be back.... soon!


'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind 
(Stare at the Sun)


we must see that every scar is a bridge, and as long as we live
we must open up these wounds
when some one stands in your shoes and will shed his own blood
there's no greater love. we must open up our wounds
(For Miles)


I will follow you, lay down my life
I would die for you, this very night

once again the bread and wine
but it seems the meanings may be deeper still this time
and you surprised me when you said I'd fall away, don't you know me
I could never be ashamed of you, no I?
(Like Moths to Flames)


And after all of this I am amazed,
That I am cursed far more than I am praised
(Silver Wings)


I am a pilgrim - a voyager; I won’t rest until my lips touch the shore -
Of the land that I’ve been longing for as long as I’ve lived,
Where there’ll be no pain or tears anymore.


My heart is filled with songs of forever -
Of a city that endures, where all is made new.
I know I don’t belong here; I’ll never
Call this place my home, I’m just passing through.
(In Exile)

farewell may

I know we still have a few days left of May, but with the weather becoming extremely lot and my life becoming more busy I find myself already saying goodbye to way May and anticipating June. May was such a beautiful month. I finally found my heart accepting that I'm not in Korea anymore. I adjusted to my new community and who I am here. I went through a lot of refining and renewing especially in my mind and in my heart.

I hope to have some time to revamp the blog layout and design. I'm leaving for California in 2 days where I'll be basking in the sun, catching up with old friends, visiting new places and eating a lot of good food. Maybe a break will help with the creative juices to start flowing.

With goodbyes there are always hellos. I want to introduce to you a series I'm HOPING to launch some time in June. I'll probably be asking some of my readers to help me out :) I hope you'll be up for it! The word undone has been coming up and I started to meditate on what it really means. I don't know if I've really come undone - unravel all of me and be completely void of who I am or who I try to be. Have I really let go of the old self and allowed a true transformation to take place in my life or am I still clinging on to bits of the old while trying to live under the new grace of Christ?

What does it mean to be undone in God's presence? I want to hear your stories!

10,000 || my life

I started this blog mainly for the purpose of sharing my photography. I decided to try a 366 project where I'm supposed to take a picture a day. Shortly after starting my blog I stumbled upon other photography and inspiring blogs which motivated me to keep going and let it become what it is. It's been about 5 months since I started this and I'm thankful for where it's come.

Honestly, I don't understand a lot of what goes on in the blogging world. I don't know what linking up is, I don't know what meet & tweets are, I don't know how to get sponsors or do giveaways. I did this without any guidance, but just for fun. Through it I discovered a lot about my self and who I am. I was plunged into a realm of comparison and inadequacy. When I let go and did what felt the most comfortable, everything flowed. 

To have more than 10,000 views and 70 followers is pretty exciting for me considering I don't know what I'm doing, I don't give anything free away and write only what I know which isn't much. Thank you for reading faithfully. Thank you for believing in me and being a part of my life.

What I want most is that this blog will bless you, encourage you and hopefully challenge you to live undignified lives of faith. As I share tidbits of my life I hope that it inspires you and that you see more of Jesus than me. 

I wonder where this will all go!

my summer in mtv titles || guest post

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This is the first time I'm having a guest post on my blog. I don't know what this means but I'm excited. I don't know how Bekkah found me, but in the past few months she has been such an amazing encouragement to me and my blog. What I love most about her blog is her honesty. She has a way with words to show what she's learning or what she's going through. I asked her to share what she'll be doing this summer. I love hearing about people's summer plans, so I guess thats what these upcoming guest posts will be about. I'm really excited for Bekkah. When God does new things in the lives of those 'around' us (even blog friends) I get really stoked! Enjoy and go follow her! 
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hello there hannah grammers!!

bekkah here, from rebekkah made whole. i have been asked by my sweet new cyber friend to guest post about my summer plans, but i wanted to start with last year. 


last june was true life: i'm a church planter. i had the wonderful opportunity to intern for a friend as he started renaissance church - a bilingual christian community in manitoba, canada. most of what made it such a great summer, was the care free nature of my heart. our living arrangements and budget had been all worked about before we got there, so we "didn't have to worry" about anything. we could focus on meeting new people and telling them about Jesus. and hang out and have fun and serve the people in our temporary community.

as a recent graduate, this june marks the beginning of the real world berkeley: from southern college student to west coast working girl. i'll be joining my older sister in berkeley, california and hopefully starting a new job. sometime in july we'll probably be apartment hunting in the berkeley area, and i'll be getting used to the new cost of living, haha. i've already been perusing different properties online, so the sticker shock is wearing away a little. but regardless of how much anything costs, the truth is i still don't have to worry about it. life might not be tangibly pre-arranged, but God is still my constant, and ever-present provision. i hope that truth is something that really burrows it's way into my heart this summer. especially since i'll somehow have to finance a round trip ticket so i can still be a bridesmaid in my good friend's august wedding!

this grand cross country move was as much news to me as it was to everyone else. i'd intended on staying in north cackalacky, as we call it {not really, unless the year is 2003 and you're a wanna be rapper}, but in the course of week it became clear that God had other plans. so this summer, i will be watching those glorious plans unfold, and learning again to live to give God glory. i'll also be frequenting this lovely little slice of the world wide web to treat myself to some hannah grams :] 

thanks for having me !!